Today, because Kate is possibly the best daughter in the whole wide world I have been afforded the time to write while the endless painful distractions have been silenced for a while.
Yesterday in the morning I was so excited as I would be trying acupuncture for the first time, Kate and I had a bonding session in cromer first, taking in Henry's and his orange marmalade bread pudding. I was ear;ly getting to my appointment which turned out to be the biggest mistake I could have made. I had my audio book so was not in the slightest bit worried, but the other physiotherapist decided to be helpful. I told him I was happy to wait, indicating my audio book as the perfect waiting partner but he refused to listen and ushered me in. There was the first clue, he did not hear me, and the rest of my appointment was the same. Whatever I said he dismissed or pulled a face that implied I was talking utter shit. I was so uncomfortable in his company that I struggled to get him to hear what I was saying. Despite me having told him that the exercises he recommends for neck pain actually aggravating my symptoms he insisted that they were the only was willing to suggest. I mentioned the promise of acupuncture when the appointment was made and he practically snarled his response. “I can do acupuncture!” he said “ but I cannot see how it will help you!”. I was fascinated that he had studied the meridians and did not give them the credit they are entitled to. It was only my tenacity that actually got me the treatment I had gone there for but I have to admit that despite knowing in my heart that this man I should not have working on me I accepted the further appointments.
Physically my neck seems to feel better, the things that usually ensure severe pain only caused a mild discomfort and I woke today feeling pretty good and as you can see by the blog my mental fog is not as debilitating as is the norm these days.
Now to address the energy this fuck wit emulates and how he was able to trigger the defeatist in me.
Different strokes for different folks should be taught in schools, but religion has taught us to only trust those who think and believe the same as we do, or to blindly accept what the so called “experts” insist is right.
That man dismissed the things I told him and as it was not something he had come across before I must be mistaken. He became so focused on telling me where I was obviously wrong he failed to see that the advice he gave for my ailments would only aggravate the symptoms.
Firstly my neck becomes sore, then I over heat, this causes a headache and if I cannot bring my temperature down and fast I up-chuck for at least the next16 hours.. He told me to use a warm cloth on my neck to ease the pain LOL fucking fuck wit.
At that point my choices were cry or laugh I opted for the latter and suggested he allow what I have said to be digested before he said anything. His solar plexus and crown were clearly open as he was so busy being right he failed to actually engage with me, his patient. His throat chakra was open as he spoke more than he listened and third eye clearly blocked as he continued to try and hammer this square peg into the round hole he thinks everything and one should fit into.
Its funny cos we get it with animals, different breeds different needs and we can accept it, adapting to the needs of the individual breed knowing that if we do we will bring out the best in them.
Some people hate what I do with the chakras and that's fine with me as long as they don't expect me to not love, think, breath and shit chakras till my dying day and probably into the after life. I accept that he believes different to me so will call to change therapist as I have no desire to change his mind or have him change mine. Nor do I wish to taint my appointment by having to bat away his contempt.
If you are a chiwawa, German Sheppard or a Heinz 57 know who you are, accept it with all your heart but for fuck sake accept that not everyone is the same as you. If you are secure in the knowledge of who and what you are and have tried and tested your beliefs it will not be as important to you to try and force others to share your beliefs, or become like you in order to validate what you believe.