I don't often mention names of friends when writing about them but Dawn is a special case and I feel the need to give credit where its due.
I used to call her goat girl because she had stubbornness down to a fine art, but on closer inspection she has only ever been stubborn with stubborn people. Come to think of it she has only ever been to others what they have been towards her.
If you are interested in what she has to say she say's something interesting. If you care about her feelings she'll care about yours. In all the years I have known her I have had the most fun introducing her to others and then asking them what they thought of her. Every time without fail they named their own trait as her's.
The possessive seen her as possessive,the selfish can only see her selfishness, the aloof declared her aloof, the grumpy were sure she was the grumpy one. The demanding demanded that she was way too demanding.
Observing has tickled me on many occasions and taught me the value of reflection.
We all have a little Dawn reflector in us so its important to stop and check that what you believe the other is doing to you is not just a reflection of your own attitude being reflected back at you.
While on the walk with Darcy this morning I allowed my thoughts on an issue with another friend seep into my tranquility. Almost instantly I noticed my normally easy going happy dog had stopped in the middle of the lane and refused to budge an inch LMAO that is where I am with the situation with the friend. I want to go my own way and have no interest in just accepting following where I think she wants things to go.
I stopped and looked at my chakras and and could see that the chakras blocking matched the chakra challenge this friendship afforded. My Solar plexus, heart, throat and hands had all blocked at the mere thought of talking to her again. Truth be told I have no clue what to do so have found peace in doing nothing.
Last time we spoke she had accused me of wanting it all my way, but I recognized her own reflection even if she had not. If I had of had it all my own way we would not be talking until I was assured she had heard what it is I had already said. You see the original issue was a reflection of what I had done within this friendship. I had stopped listening to my own feelings while I nurtured and reassured her feelings. Now that I have had the time and space to go back to feeling and being myself first before I think of another I am reluctant to put myself back into that situation again for fear I will loose myself again.
That's the Down side of Dawns ability to reflect others energy back at them, she often looses herself when she is surrounded by people unwilling or unable to own their own darker sides.